Eating, Running and Singing

I just got back from playing soccer with some friends and nice strangers out on the parade grounds.  I played goalie, because I have decent reflexes and I'm not that fast, but I did do a good bit of running, mostly when retrieving stray shots.  It felt good to get a bit of exercise.

Most of you who know me know that I am fat. Though none of you want to say it to my face.  Like when I make fat jokes about myself and people are like, "Hey don't say that about yourself." I'm not compliment fishing, bitch. I'm making a joke, and I'm trying to make you laugh.  I'm not that sensitive or self-conscious.

I know I'm fat.  I eat unconsciously.  It's not like I think "I am going to gluttonously eat this big bag of chips."  No, I think "I'll have a few chips, and then save them for tomorrow" and before I know it, the bag is empty.  I throw it away, and I completely forget I ate that big fucking bag of chips.

I don't tell people I eat a lot, because three quarters of the food I eat, I don't remember eating.  It just happens that way.  I bet a lot of the really obese people, like the 600 pound dudes, have the same sort of unconscious problem, just a lot worse.

Sometimes I go on long stretches of time where I don't eat that much at all.  It seems that when I'm feeling hungry (not when I just want to eat, but when I actually feel hunger from not eating), I don't want to eat that much.  I tend to lose a lot of weight during these stretches.  It's an unhealthy way to lose weight, but since when do I do things the healthy way?

"I'm a pretty crappy athlete."  That's the beginning of my song "Three Minute Mile", and it's true.  I'm just not.  I did run with St. Paul's Lutheran School in the 4x400 track relay, and we really did win fifth place.  I hated running around that fucking track, so I pretty much jogged instead.

That song's actually about death.  If I ran a three minute mile, I'd probably die.

When I get back to Peachtree City for the summer, I'm getting a bunch of guys to form a backup band.  It will be James Read Hunter and the James Read Hunters, and all the other guys will wear masks of my face, and I'll wear a mask myself, and then I'll whip it off, and it will be my actual face!  Sweet.